Extensive research in the field of dramatization has led me to believe that my life is one big fucking sitcom. I ride the ups and downs like a god damn roller coaster and I've gotten pretty damn good at it. But im tired of letting that be how i get around. I wanna look at this like a giant set of stairs spiraling so high into the sky i can't see the top. I've sold myself short for other people time and time again. I've vouched for people that i no longer believe in. My head, it pounds like a relentless techno beat that you make up when youre tripping. None of this means anything. Nobody reads this.
Im going to disappear.
You're going to miss me.
Im not scared of any of you anymore. Im not worried about disappointing anyone but myself anymore. It was always about impressing someone, or getting them off of my back.. but now i just wanna show myself what everyone should already know, and that is in fact that I am the best at what i do. What that is, I dont know. What that means, well you figure it out.
You have made me sick. So sick of you, and youre ugly side. I've seen it. It hangs from the front part of youre stomach. And you never think about it but its there. I would've done so much for you. Don't ever offer anyone the world if you're still afraid of it.
You have disappointed me, I thought you were a bigger person then the crap youre pulling, I love you but damn man..let it go.
You need to stop playing victim, and peek outside your bubble once in a fucking while. It might surprise you how pretty everything is.
You need to stop using people who love you.
You need to leave me alone, Im doing everything I can for you and you still want more. Im only one person and my heart has been divided too many times to give it all to you.
I need. To stop being so self-righteous. To learn when to quit. And stop selling myself short for
weak hearted, meanspirited people who only care about them and theirs.
There you go blogspot, my testimony to all of you FAGS before I leave you all behind in a whirlwind of success, sandy beaches, and the pursuit of newer happier memories.
